Defying Gravity.

anyways, i'm here to update again. time check, 0400hours. tired. but, i just miss blogging. this is the only time i'm free. i'm fully pack this few weeks with follow-ups, appointments, attaching appointments, fixing and surveys. i love it when i'm pack. i got something useful to do in life. i'm currently having my period. so, dont piss me off.

brenda is pissed of at me and i'm pissed of at her. reasons because, i hate it when she say she's gonna die. its nothing to joke about dear babygirl. honestly, the whole days passed i didnt contact you was because i wanted to prank you badly. but when you sent me those message, i totally went boiling. i may sound exaggerating to you, but hey, people around me that i know, passed away. my beloved ones in hospital. i'm not gonna tell who, cause its private and confidential. family members can know but not others. i cant pray because of my period. so, i pray hard in my heart that they're safe in gods hand. i miss arwah atok. i miss arwah nek besar. i miss arwah pak busu. i miss the ones that had return back to Allah s.w.t. tears rolled down my cheeks everyday whenever i press backwards through the memory lane that we spend the fullest time together. so babygirl, stop using the word die. i already have alot of things in mind. i dont wanna lose you. you dont know how hard it is to lose someone so precious and knowing that you're not gonna meet them until afterlife. 2009 has been giving me hard times. but, i know i'm strong and i can pull it through myself. what i have to do now is spend my time with my loved ones preciously. they're the most important people then anyone else in the world. and i'm trying my best to find time for you too. i swear.

i'm wide awake. i have no idea why. i cant go to sleep. my eyes are super itchy. and guess what, I CAN GET MY PHONE BACK FROM SONY ERICSSON ! super happy ! i miss my T700 so much ! he's the only handphone i can camwhore and actually upload it on my computer easily. haha ! VHOOT VHOOT ! zura might be tagging along in the morning to collect my phone. after collecting, head off to work. i miss rafie. you know rafie. my superduperadorabledimpleboy rafie. remember ? haha ! that neh neh called me in the whee hours. giler.

SYAMILAH SIRAT ! AKU RINDU KAU NAK GILER MAMPOS ! haha ! terbalik. style per. haha ! you neh neh lagik satu. message aku stakat nak bilang yang tuition e-in with mak long tak jadi. apeeerr darh. we. need. to. spend. more. time. togeeeether. :D