woke up today by mom's nagging cause i was sleeping in my parents room. and she needs to go to work. so, she had to lock the doors. so, i drag my ass off to my room. she pass me $20 for the whole week. aww, i didnt expect that. she's so sweet. i feel like a useless daughter. i'm not schooling. i'm not working. i'm not earning any money. and i'm relying on my parents. i've been such a lazy person lately. i have to get my independence back. i'm gonna do something useful. first up, cleaning my room. throw unwanted things. or maybe sell it away. second, rearranging the things the tables and shelfs. third, repaint my room or maybe ask someone to draw graffiti on my walls to look very artistic. i want my room to be that way. fourth, find myself a job. fifth, pay back the money that i borrowed from my parents and siblings. sixth, pay my bills. i wont be using my phone much. cause its useless now. i cant text nor call anyone. but i can receive incoming calls. so anything call. if you want me to call you, just text me. i have to be responsible for my own mistakes. so, i wont let mom or dad pay my bills. i have to change the way i am now. i wanna be an 18 year old with a responsible and independent mindset. i'm an adult now. no more wasting time on things that arent much help in my life. i'm not like any other 18 year old. i'm different. way different. so, live with it. i shall continue cleaning my room now. call me if you need anything or need someone to talk to.
oh, and ameerul, get well soon, love. take alot of rest.